Read All About It: The Ultimate Fuckboy

Dating, Fashion


Yes ladies, I’ve met him and I’m here to pass on the gospel so you don’t fall for it too. He is: the fuckboy that pretended not to be a fuckboy. Which equates to the ultimate, top trump, f*cking, fuckboy. Yes fellas she’s angry, she’s armed with a blog and she’s not afraid to use it.

So I know this is private and personal and maybe I look petty AF calling him out on my blog (which he so raved about while wooing me btw). But I’m hoping you guys can relate to or at least learn from my experience.

It’s ironic I’m wearing a ‘Heartbreaker’ slogan tee in these pics as that’s what this guy said I would do, break his heart. Looking back maybe he’s decided he would do it to me first.


One of the first conversations I had with this new guy I was dating started with us taking the piss out of what fuckboys do because of a funny video on Facebook and how he would never act like that as he found it degrading. He seemed like the perfect gent, little did I know he would turn out to be one too. He took me on extravagant dates, said he really liked me, even called me wife material(!) then told me he got scared at how fast it (clarification: *he*) was moving? Ultimate fuckboy move pal.

It’s just so ridiculous; ‘long lasting happiness with someone I think I could maybe eventually marry?’, ‘Na, thanks mate I’m good, I’d rather act weird about my feelings and run away with my proverbial tail between my legs’. It left me feeling completely disillusioned as I was swept away in the possibility of it all. Finally a happy ending for Annie? Life has clearly shot me down with a ‘lol, not this time hun’.


I know this is not just me, which has been the whole prompt for me sharing this. One of my best mates went through the exact same scenario and has now proclaimed my guy is version 2.0. I’ve also had a lunchtime conversation at work about all this with different age ranges, we concluded that because of the shift in us women becoming stronger, more independent and confident we seem to be scaring men away.

Are all men pussies now? Or maybe we’re just dating the wrong ones? If so where are all the good ones without commitment issues at? Is this exclusively a London thing where everyone and everything is a temporary pop-up fad? Answers from outside this metropolitan dating madness on a postcard please.


By now I’m so hardened to it that it’s become water off a ducks back, I almost expect it. Yes it’s still very disappointing that someone would act like that but I can only laugh at the ridiculousness of it all and think back to my last post to know that it obviously wasn’t meant to be for a reason. Maybe the reason is to turn me into an ever more self assured woman that’s able to determine character and distinguish what she really needs and wants out of a relationship and I am 100% down for that.

Guys my advice to you is this; in the words of Nick Cave’s Love Letter (totes emosh favourite song atm btw), if you really like her please ‘go get her, go get her’. Don’t let you being a pussy and thinking about all the what ifs stand in the way of something that might just be as important as everlasting love (Love Affair – another absolute belter).


There’s no hard feelings now as I put it down to lack of experience on his part and not being able to deal with the feelings he had for me, instead he began acting distant and weird and leaving me on read/unread for days (I don’t know which one was worse?) then coming back to me like everything was normal. I don’t give these games the time of day anymore so I threw in the towel. At this time in my life either you’re serious about me or you’re not, I’m not gonna stick around for someone on the fence, make the effort to get your arse down from it.


Hat: H&M/Blazer: Miss Guided/Bumbag: Primark/Trousers and Tee (Similar): both Very

Although there’s no hard feelings, if you act like a prat it’s going in the blog cus I may be enlightened with positivity and love but I will still definitely call you out on your BS and bad behavior, to quote one of my favourite memes (yes I’m quoting a meme) that perfectly balances spirituality with everyday reality:

‘namaste c*nt face I’m sending you love’…


A x


Edit: Annie at The Fringe

Full of the joys of Spring

Fashion, Lifestyle, Photoshoot, Wellbeing


Here I am twirling around in a field full of flowers feeling like I’m bloody Maria Von Trapp in the Sound of Music (my fav musical fyi) and I cannot think of a better way to describe how Spring makes me feel.

Those first glimpses of Sun on your face that hint Summer is on its way. Especially what with the British weather being a huge tease this year, is it snowing, isn’t it snowing? It messed with our heads more than a f*ckboy and turned up when it was quite frankly too late and we’re all over it.

But this blog post is not just about the weather oh no, (I mean I am British and I LOVE to go on about it but I’ll try not to be basic here).

PANA4224-2Dress: Loavies 

This photoshoot and the weather got me thinking about happiness. As undoubtably EVERYONE is in a much better mood when the sun is shining and the flowers are blooming. But what can we do to be happy year round? When maybe it rains all day, you’ve got a huge hole in your tights exposing your bum cheeks and generally having a bad work week… all the while being let down by a friend and going through a major family issue (this was all just last week). It’s about knowing that those times and days won’t last, however dark.

Looking for the little things to be grateful for, surrounding yourself with people that lift you up and setting goals to accomplish (however small) all help me. Sometimes it is a case of just having to power through till you reach those better times. But they Are there.


Everyone comments that I’m such a happy, smiley person (disclaimer: not 100% of the time, I’m not a robot) so I thought I’d share my secret. Personally what makes me happy is following my heart, listening to my intuition and basically not giving a f*ck. When I say that, obviously I do give a f*ck but only about the important things and not sweating about the small stuff or allowing other people’s behavior or opinions get to me. 9 times out of 10 you’ll find that something that really bothered you, maybe what someone said or did, works out to not matter anymore, maybe that person was just going through a rough patch themselves.

When I’m in a funk I love to either go to the gym, blare out upbeat music (Club Tropicana works a treat) and look after myself with some self-care, even if it’s just a nice hot long shower. Yoga can also be a great release of emotions – seriously people cry mid-class.


Last week I got my hair chopped short (obvs after these pictures), there were some neigh-sayers as expected but I listened to myself, thought no guts no glory and did what I thought would make ME happy anyway. I was longing for a change after 10 years of the same hairstyle and my long locks had become a bit of a burden. Thankfully I love it! (Sometimes change is exactly what you need to make you happier in the long run, no matter how scary).


Obviously there’s so much more I could write about the art of happiness, it’s a huge subject, especially within the whole wellness industry at the moment and we just don’t have that kind of time on my humble little blog. So I suppose the main thing that maintains my positivity is an unwavering faith that I’m on a journey where everything is unfolding as it’s meant to. Even if you can’t see it at first you will look back one day and know why it worked out the way it did. Which brings me to my fav Steve Jobs quote:


“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.”

― Steve Jobs


I was previously in a 10 year relationship which ended abruptly and I couldn’t understand why. It’s only looking back now that I realise. I know I would never have been the independent person I am thankful to be today if we were still together.


When times get hard I like to check myself and remember who I am and what I’ve been through before and say to myself ‘if I’ve done that, I can get through anything’. You’re always stronger than you know. Another fav quote of mine which you would have heard on The Kardashian’s several times, goes ‘God only gives you what you can handle’. I’m more spiritual than religious (as my dating profile proclaims) so I take that to mean the Universe but whether you believe in God, The Kardashian’s or not, use it any way that you see fit.

Another important note to add is that when you are happy, do not feel guilty about it, it’s not a selfish act. If you’re happy you can make others happy and spread that positivity. Think of it as putting on your oxygen mask in the aeroplane first in order to assist others.


I’m not pretending that I won’t have to go back and read this at some point to reassure myself but I hope the words here (more so the expert quotes and book links below) can help someone at some point.

A x

Reading list:


Photos: Andrew McGovern

Edit: Annie at the Fringe


Instagram is my Boyfriend

Dating, Fashion, Instagram, Photoshoot


Instagram is my Boyfriend.

And we’ve been serious for about 6 months now. Ok not my actual boyfriend, I know I’ve been single for quite a while but I’ve not become completely deluded or given up all hope yet – don’t worry Mam. The aim of this post (my first blog post, yay!) is to explain the relationship I have with the gram and how I started this blog, as I thought that would be a good way to kick things off.

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It all began when I had a lot of time on my hands back in October as I was struck down with glandular fever. As a single gal (feeling very Carrie Bradshaw rn) I felt so lonely being off from work and isolated from the world, my family and friends were incredibly great but I was mostly in quarantine for a good couple of months. I needed something to take my mind off my illness. I turned to Instagram as it was the only thing I could manage to do from my bed. I realized I had a lot of outfit pictures I’d never posted before and was surprised when the likes and follows started to roll in.

After the feedback I’d received I started to take it more seriously, I changed the name and made it a business page, I even bought this domain and the email ad, you know just incase. By December time I started to feel better and began taking outfit pics on the reg, around Christmas I reached my first 1 thousand followers and it was an actual buzz. Fashion blogging is always something I’ve flirted with (I remember speaking to a successful fashion blogger telling her I’d love to start one but wouldn’t know where to begin) but it was at that 1k point when I thought ‘You know what I can actually do this, why not me?’.

IMG_9247T-shirt and beret: Miss Guided (similar)

I’d found something to get me through that terrible time as it gave me a renewed sense of purpose, it was actually making me feel better day by day, maybe because I was receiving such nice comments which cheered me up. I’d also grown a little support network with some wonderful (and down right hilarious) gals who all shared the same female empowerment sentiment and interests that I had. I began to wake up and go to bed with instagram, I was no longer alone in my room! (In a none creepy way)

Aside from internet pals, before you think I’ve become a hermit, it’s also become something fun to do with my IRL mates. We’ve now made it a thing of going for a brunch catch up then taking outfit pics (by far my favorite weekend activity). Popping out at work on my lunch break with my work wife to get that all important outfit shot is also one way to break up the working day. Who needs an actual boyfriend when you’ve got that kind of support from your gals eh!


To me the gram it’s about SO much more than gaining likes, although don’t get me wrong they don’t go amiss ;). As a fashion graduate I have a real passion for the creativity of styling so it really does p*** me off me when people scoff at it and make remarks such as ‘it’s not real life though’. Because actually for some, it is. From what I know of the industry so far a lot of work goes into it. Whether you think it’s real life or not it brought me back from the brink of a very depressing time, for that I’ll forever be grateful to the gram and defend it as if it were my boyfriend.

As with any relationship it can be love/ hate, maybe when your pics don’t do as well as you’d hoped and it makes you feel a teeny bit down when you’ve put time and energy into them or when you’re struggling for content as it’s been a very rainy week, when that happens I do begin to feel the pressure creeping in BUT that’s all self imposed pressure, there are no rules and that’s what’s so great about the gram. Like every good boyfriend it will always be there (unless it ever gets replaced for a new younger model named Vero) but let’s not think about that and just enjoy the romance.


A x

Photos by: Andrew McGovern